So many days sitting, waiting, healing and praying. Praying for the return of the healthy, strong, fearless body that did not often sit idle. I have not asked God “why pain? or why illness? or why me?” in this journey. I guess I look at the adversity of life and know that it’s not about climbing the mountain to be close to Him, it’s about the nourishment in the valley. After all, the top of the mountain is usually quite cold, brown and lonely. The valley is warm, and green with lush grass and flowing streams. It’s a place where the Lord can meet you where you are at, providing comfort, company and substance for healing not just for the body yet also the soul. If I question Him and ask “why me” then I am not trusting His will for me. What I have asked is “why has he chosen me out of so many”. Chosen me to be a part of His kingdom. I am a sinner whose sins are no less than anyone else, yet He has chosen me to be a part of an eternal plan.
As we sang in service yesterday, I considered the words in one of the hymns. It’s a beautiful hymn whose words and musical components made my inner being stir. To not embarrass myself nor my family by falling down on my knees, I sat quietly praising Him in my thoughts as the words streamed out of my mouth. How can I ask for any more than that which I am already blessed with. After all, this life is only a warm up to an eternity!
Isaac Watts, 1707 “How sweet and awful is the place, With Christ within the doors, While ever lasting love displays The choicest of her stores.
While all our hearts and all our songs Join to admire the feast, Each of us cry, with thankful tongues, “Lord, why was I a guest?”
“Why was I made to hear thy voice And enter while there’s room, When thousands make a wretched choice, And rather starve than come?”
‘Twas the same love that spread the feast that sweetly drew us in; Else we had still refused to taste, and perished in our sin.
Pity the nations, O our God Constrain the earth to come; Send they victorious Word abroad, And bring the strangers home.
We long to see thy churches full, That all the chosen race May, with one voice and heart and soul, Sing thy redeeming grace. Amen”
Matthew 7:13 “Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many.