Looking Back and Seeing Blessings

When I was first diagnosed with Lyme disease, EBV, co-infections, mycoplasma pneumonia, etc. etc. I wondered how I would survive and how I would get my life back. I’ve shared my story and I’ve shared my journey through Lyme and yet I am still in awe that I have been blessed with healing and have come so far. The Lord has given me strength when I thought I had none, he gave me hope when it was far reaching, he gave me His Word when I needed it the most.

I was asked a year ago, if antibiotics work, why don’t people hear about it and why aren’t those who are healed talking? Well, I responded with the fact that those who have been given a second chance at life are living it. They don’t want to relive the horror of Lyme. The exceptions are people like me who carry on trying to bring awareness and share with others so that they too can be educated on symptoms. Lyme is considered the great imitator for a reason. So many of todays throw in groups of diagnosis, when there is not an answer to “why”, can be and very likely may be Lyme disease or one of the co-infections. The testing is flawed on so many levels and doctors do not have the resources they need to diagnose.

I am one of the “lucky ones” you could say. I say I am blessed beyond measure. So are many others. They are sharing their stories in incredible ways. One such couple, I’ve been following since my journey began. This was one of the first videos I found on Lyme disease. I was heartbroken, and my adrenals went haywire with the emotional rollercoaster of this video, however, it gave me hope. Hope when I needed it the most, when the pain was excruciatingly bad, and when in most people’s eyes there shouldn’t be.

This video is still flourishing around and although its content is difficult to watch, I have to share with you before you watch it, that Justin and Christa now have 3 beautiful children and they are living normal lives. Christas journey is not unlike that of so many others that have followed in her journey since 2004. I am hoping that if you are watching this, you will remember that hope is something to hold onto, a mental place set in the mind when you need it the most. Pray about it and cling to it.

Be educated dear follower, Lyme and co-infections are the most widely spread vector borne illness in the country and in many parts of the world. Over 400,000 upward of 1 million are affected each year. Most of which are undiagnosed and or misdiagnosed. Putting that into perspective, Breast cancer has 264,000 new patient diagnosis each year. Hence you see the problem.

Here is Christa and Justins story:

http://www.justinandchrista.ca

My Story – Again

I am sharing my lyme story with a reporter who is sharing about Lyme disease and the affects it has. I want to make sure that this stays “my” story and am posting it here first. If you know it, you don’t have to read it again. If you want to be reminded of how important prevention is, and how much you need to understand the symptoms, read it again. I could on so many different levels been diagnosed at one time or another with: Lupus, MS, Alzheimers, fibromyalgia, rheumatoid, chronic fatigue, Meneres, and so much more. Between all of my symptoms, it’s crazy I didn’t get into one of the above throw in groups. Question your symptoms, question the doctors and ask WHY. Huge game changer when you start asking why and start doing your own research.

My Lyme story began long before I understood that it had. On a camping trip in the early 80’s to the eastern states I had become ill. Not thinking it was more than just exhaustion or something of that sort, I went along as normal. Approximately 1-2 months later, as I began my High School journey, I began having symptoms, of which at the time, the doctors had no idea what was going on. I was falling asleep every afternoon, I began having migratory pain in my legs, I had migraines and I also began experiencing Supra Ventricular Tachycardias. For someone my age, doctors had no idea what was going on. I grew up in MI and so even though Lyme was picking up attention in the east coast, no one really knew how to deal with what I was experiencing in MI.
My sophomore year in HS, I also had water on the knee, with no injury. This is classic for Lyme patients. I spent several months on crutches and it eventually was better. I continued throughout HS to have the above symptoms and in my mid 20’s my SVT’s were so bad that I ended up having a heart ablation. Again, the doctors could not understand why I was having them.
When I became pregnant with my first child, I “strange looking” stretch marks in places my doctor had never seen before for a pregnant woman. I found out later that these were bartonella markings. Our first child had a coroid plexus cyst on his brain, which ended up being nothing and he was born normal. Our child did experience, allergy type symptoms, unknown fevers, food intolerances all of which were strange to us since we had not had these types of symptoms in our family prior.
Fast forward a few more years, both of our children started having bartonella tracking, around the age of 8-10. They both were diagnosed Hypo thyroid and their adrenals were a mess. As for myself, their labs mimicked mine. I too was diagnosed with hypo thyroid, EBV, adrenal dysfunction, food intolerances, etc. Yet, no diagnoses. I was tested in my 30’s for parasites, rheumatoid, fibromyalgia, and so much more. Still no diagnosis.
In 2013, we now live in WI, I am tired and my adrenals are a mess, yet I keep going with my life as best I can. I remember starting to have trouble with my right ankle that summer. For over 2 weeks I felt like I was dragging my right foot. I was too busy to worry about it and thought maybe it was pinched nerve that needed to work itself out. I also noticed that when I was working in my garden I was getting dizzy and wobbly at times. This never happened to me.
Fast forward two more weeks and I fell asleep on the couch, which I never do, only to find that I could hear everything around me. I could not however, open my eyes. I had to physically use my hands to open my eyes and head to bed. I slept 10 hours that night, came downstairs the next morning only to find that I couldn’t stand up, was so exhausted I couldn’t function. I collapsed on the couch. I started having chills, felt sick, and was experiencing the worst exhaustion I’d ever felt. After a few days, it continued and I called my doctor. I was told that with the fact I go out to a farm, have two gardens of my own and I am outside most of the time, I should be tested for Lyme. I was also test for rheumatoid again. We did not do the CDC Lyme test, my doctor directed me to the IGenix test immediately. As the 3 weeks went by waiting for the results, I began having excruciating pain in every limb and throughout my body. I couldn’t remember names, I was having a hard time with cognitive thought, I was sleeping at least 18 hours a day if not more, I was confused and disoriented. When the testing came back positive I was relieved to have a diagnosis. I was very positive for Lyme and then co-infections. I sought out a medical professional that treated Lyme, of which took a more alternative and natural approach. I was happy with that and spent 2 years treating this way. While treating the Lyme this way, I also saw a chiropractor weekly, did weekly messages, had acupuncture every few weeks along with crystal light therapy, and I continued to be sick, I thought my life was going to forever be the way it was. I was bed bound for 10 months at the start and I ended up purchasing a wheelchair for anytime I needed to walk. If there was an activity, I had to sleep and rest for 3 days and then after the one day activity (of which I was only able to participate for half of it) I would have to rest 4 days later. My brain fog continued, I continued to have sharp pains that came out of nowhere at the most inconvenient time, I was dizzy, I couldn’t’ drive, I had terrible memory loss and word recognition was awful. I still couldn’t walk to the end of the driveway. I had acquired a virus that attacked my heart, I was dealing with Mycoplasma Pneumonia, EBV, Lyme, co-infections, diagnosed with Hashimotos and more.
After 2 1/2 years of this treatment plan, I decided to try another LLMD that treated with antibiotics. After just one month of antibiotics, I began to notice a difference. After 6 months of antibiotics, at high doses, a cocktail of 3 at a time, I was shocked to see the difference in my quality of life. My coughing was gone, my pain in my limbs was getting better, my brain fog was clearing up, I did not need the wheelchair any longer, I could actually participate in life experiences without having to rest days before and after.
Three years on high doses of antibiotics, changed out every few months, high pro and probiotics and changing my diet to accommodate, I can say I am almost completely in remission. I am trying a last treatment option which I am confident will close the box on Lyme and I will be officially in remission.
I am a Disney fan and have had several annual passes. I can now go to Disney without using a wheelchair, I can walk 9 miles in a day and do it again the next, I am thinking clearly and my brain fog is almost completely gone, I no longer have cognitive issues or work recognition issues other that that which is normal for my age which in my 50’s.
When my health started to return, I volunteered with the Wisconsin Lyme Network and have since become the president. I volunteer my hours trying to educate and bring awareness to this disease that is not the highest vector borne illness in our country and in many parts of the world. Our numbers are more than double that of breast cancer, far more than west Nile, and so much greater than even HIV. Even with these staggering numbers, our society and our communities do not understand what a small insect is capable of doing to the human body. Carrying infectious disease and destroying the inner workings of the body. We need to get the medical community to efficiently treat, diagnose and care for patients with accuracy, and we need our communities to take prevention seriously.
You may ask, why after so many years, did I “do ok” with my circumstance? We believe that either a second tick bite while I was working at the farm or a stressful situation triggered my full blown response. Adding in the story of my children, they both contracted it through me when I was pregnant. Of which, after all these years, the CDC has FINALLY admitted that transmission is “possible” through pregnancy from a mother to the child. This of course I’ve known for years, especially after watching Under Our Skin, documentary.

Touching Base the Disulfiram Journey

My beloved grandmother whose love knew no boundaries and whose adventurous spirit kept us all on our toes.

Checking In

It’s been awhile since I check in. I have a very good reason. On January 1, my birthday, I received the most delightful wakeup call from my grandmother. She called to wish me a happy birthday and we had the most wonderful conversation. Later that afternoon, I received a call from a family member that my dear sweet 94 year old grandmother had been taken to the ER with a brain bleed. She was living in FL and myself living 5 states away, I could not get to her that day as all flights were done and so on January 2nd, I flew down to be with her. On January 5th she passed on to be with the Lord. I did not return home until the 12th, as there was a great deal to do, as you could imagine.

I do not think that I could have endured the trip, caring for her those 5 days, the hospital environment (with 2 cases of MRSA on the same floor just a few rooms away), the emotional stress of losing a dear loved one whom I was extremely close to, and then the planning a small memorial breakfast and caring for her home and all of her little treasures without having been on the Disulfiram. The fact I did not get sick or come home and completely collapse is due to two things: God’s providential care and shielding over me, and my LLMD who prescribed me this protocol using the Disulfiram. I am absolutely certain that God’s timing is ever so perfect.

On January 6th I was scheduled to begin my 1/2 of a 250 mg pill of the disulfiram daily, and I did not falter on that. I continued on with my treatment. On February 3rd I began the 3/4 of a 250 mg pill M-W-F while taking 1/2 T-Th-S-S. Thus I am on my second week of this regiment. I have noticed:

  1. The pain in my right ankle is quite obviously much stronger. I have a difficult time walking around first thing in the morning and at the end of the day. In fact the pain at the end of a day is so excruciating that I cannot get comfortable and am unable to get the pain to subside. Going to bed is my only saving grace.
  2. Ok, so TMI….The body odor smell that everyone talks about on the blogs is very real. I’ve hit that stage and it’s making me crazy. Two showers a day sometimes is not enough. It smells like metal. Especially when detoxing.
  3. I was, I thought, done with my monthly cycle as it has been for the last two years only showing itself at 4-6 month intervals. Well, I had gone seven months and thought I was past it. Nope! One last hurrah? Not sure. I’m blaming the Disulfiram.
  4. I’ve been able to tolerate eating some fish occasionally. I’m very happy about that.
  5. I am tired and find myself taking more breaks from “life” just to rest. Yet, I am also more motivated to get things done. I’ve been cleaning like never before. I know, sounds crazy to feel both. I think that the energy I have to get things done and the motivation takes me just so far and then my body is saying “ok, break time”.

This Lyme journey has carried me through so many locations of emotions. I have felt near death, I have felt sadness and darkness along with loneliness and I have also felt overjoyed and praise filled. My thinking is every so clear nowadays and I am so grateful for the opportunity to be able to share with others this journey. I hope that one day, someone will be able to follow with hope after seeing that healing is possible.

My grandma used to wear my Lyme bracelet in recognition of Lyme disease. I was delighted to find it in her drawer after she passed. She was so happy that I was feeling better over the last few years. I’m glad that I was able to be there for her in the end of her sweet life and that she supported me with unconditional love throughout my journey of life. She is very missed and I am slowly working past my grief.

Love you forever grandma.